I've not written in a while because I have been struggling with sleep for a few weeks now, and it is preventing me from thinking and expressing myself fully in any walk of life, and I am struggling to write this even now.

I keep waking in the night with an anxiety that I cannot place, it is like I am nervous about something which is about to happen, but I cannot think what it is. I struggle to get back to sleep following this and often wake again later. I have been to the Doctor and they tell me it is simply IBS, but I don't agree.

Something is spiritually warning me of an impending danger, something is telling me to do something about it. However I cannot see what this thing is so I cannot know what to do about it. It's very strange and it feels like it is another facet of the Kundalini energy in me.

I am reminded of Carlos Castaneda and Don Juan's words about a warrior wating:

A Warrior knows that he is waiting and knows what he is waiting for. It is very difficult, if not impossible , what he is waiting for. A Warrior, however, has no problems, he knows that he is waiting for his will.



Why so anxious?