Recovery
So I have now endured four months of insomnia and it eventually seems to be coming to an end, at least I have got myself a dietary routine which means that I do not need assistance to get to sleep now.
I've lost a lot of weight during this time and when I remember Kundalini and the warnings I have received about it messing with the body and recreating the man around itself, I take solace in the fact that this is more likely what is going on in my experience.
Certainly when I have been to see my GP she says there is nothing wrong with me medically. So as of today I am in recovery from a long long time of poor sleep and it feels good not to have to worry about getting a night's rest.
However it comes with some caveats, I seem to have developed this weird alergy to potatoes, and i've no idea why at my age this has suddenly happened. All I can report is that on days where I have potatoes for dinner, in whatever form, then I have a worse night and struggle to get to sleep at a reasonable hour. Thankfully it is a symptom that I can live with and avoid eating potatoes fairly easily.
Also I have been taking a mild laxative as I noticed that my stomach seemed to rebel against me at night and block up to the point where food did not seem to pass through my bowels. On some nights I resorted to manipulating my guts manually and only when I had done this and moved a lump along inside could I get any rest, thus I have dramatically improved my quality of life.
So I can at the moment look to the future with some hope of normailty and strength returning to my worn out system. Kundalini it seems is indeed hard to live with and in this second stage, following initial surges, it is more powerful and dramatic than I could have anticipated.
Upon pausing I can't help but wonder what will come next. I keep remembering Gopi Krishnas words about how he endured negative effects of Kundalini for 12 years, and I sincerely hope that I do not have to endure this for the same length of time as he.
I do feel a kind of oneness with the power now like I have adjusted to it quickly, probably thanks to my early identification of Kundalini.
