It's A Wonderful Life

I've just watched the full length version of It's a wonderful life, and it worked much better for me than the TV edit I remember. I got it for the first time, and what's more, my own experience seems to be a variation of a theme. I've had the downer, the visit, the world changing experience, and the triumphant return, and yet i'm not living a wonderful life.

Mine is a very different experience to anything before portrayed, my demons return time and again, and I wonder if the path that i was supposed to take but didn't is the reason. Still as before i'm here fighting for what's right, what's good, and i'm doing okay. Alright, my path is more Harry Callahan than George Bailey but I have been preordained, I've been given permission to proceed along this alternate route and i am thankful for the opportunity. The timing of this year marks a two year anniversary for me, and it seems appropriate that the coloured lights on my Christmas tree have broken to leave only white ones. This year my youngest daughter is the same age as my eldest was when all this started. I don't know if Kundalini will return in the same mannner this year, or if it matters, so we'll have to wait and see.