I am a slave and I have a cruel master, I call
it happiness and it is a small area in my brain that requires feeding
1440 minutes a day.
Everything I consume, think about, feel, and do,
is all to serve my master who is never satisfied.
My life revloves around and is controlled by happiness,
I will spend my years feeding this centre of my brain and potentially
miss the point of life. It's incredible to me that I have not seen
this before, I thought it was a traight of a corrupt personality
that needed clensing.
To find that it is an actual location in the brain
that is craving and needing sustinence changes my view of pleasure
seeking a little. Where as I thought it was a conscious feedback
loop before, now I see that it is a physical aspect of a cold hardwired
brain. The circular and spiralling nature of this slave driver is
the same, but there is a built in dependency where I thought there
It seems that humans have a requirement to seek
happiness and to ditch rational thought at the first sign of happiness
being injured. The fact that I have realised this is a step toward
stopping it surely? Perhaps my thinking is tied into this process
and while I feel that independant thought is the antithesis of this
process, maybe it's feeding it too.
I had looked at happiness as a base state of being
before now, if a mind was free it was happy, but a happy mind is
still in bondage. It has no more freedom than an heroin addict does
and you should try coming off the happiness drug!
The base state of being is something like nothing,
the mind is not pulled in any direction, happiness is a hook and
Suddenly I see, why the hell it means so much to me.
Suddenly I see.