Shit, I am becoming nothing.

I feel the desperate need to do something with my stupid life, to achieve something in this hell hole of a mother fucker world.

I have entered into a phase of unforfillment in my life, nothing is right in my head. I have to do something about it but I don't know what. It used to be that my home-life sucked and my work was good. Now it seems that work sucks and I want to spend more time at home, more time doing nothing at all.

Things that I want to do seem to be the ruling factor in this madness. I won't do as other people want me to.

I don't know if this is a coming of age thing, a quarter life crisis, or something else but I need to change. I need to start something, get a ball rolling, find out what the fuck is going on.