At work, for the last two weeks I have been spiralling out of control to a point of utter selfishness. I have been "brown stamp collecting" and have been very angry and depressed at the state of things. Charlie is quitting under nasty circumstances following a downward spiral of his own and it looks as if his decent might have been caused by one of Carlos's inorganic objects taking control of him and making him agent Charlie. Its mission was to take him down, and others with it.

On my way down I was getting funny about putting in extra effort unless I got somethig in return. As best as I could, I tried to justify my feelings and position as being detached and selfless. But they really weren't.

I had two real problems with my situation; I was feeling un-important and greedy.

I realised this when one of the bosses had a chat with me and I was able to detach myself from the feelings I had. Was this casued by an inorganic being attached to charlie maybe? It was a weird moment, because I had been thinking of the reasons why I wasn't going to do extra work for a long time, and knew them well. I felt that they were justifyable and realistic, but when it came to the moment of speaking them to my boss, I suddenly realised the futility of them.

I went ahead but i had no real feeling anymore that they were valid arguments and kind of gave up on them.

I pulled through with positive results from the chat, and a brighter outlook for the future. I now feel fine again, without any worry or doubt, and with some intent on my path of life. I will show these boys how it is done properly.