I am so tangled in myself that I cannot escape

Marilyn Manson,

The man that you fear.

 

The more I learn, the more difficult it seems to become free of my ego. I seem to be taking one step forward, and one back at the same time. I feel that I am going round in circles, meeting myself at an earlier stage of development, and realising i've been here before and that I have felt this before.

The universe is cyclic in nature, our world is as well, and my thoughts may also fall into cyclic behavioural patterns. The duration of the cycles does appear to be decreasing however. Everytime I am somewhere I have been before, It takes me less time to get out of that situation and then back to it again.

Perhaps the speed will increase until the cycles become one constant mood, maybe then I will be free from them!

15/11/03

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